'Happiness cant be postponed, we have to let it happen now'

[ MY ENTIRE POST IS GONNA BE IN RAINBOW SO IT LOOKS HAPPIER  IM SORRY GUYS ]

It's so true how.. Everytime we want the best but we wait for it to happen so that we can feel happy instead of making things right & being happy & appreciative at the moment.
We need to live for the moment.
 i need to live for the moment.

When it comes to life, lessons, experience. i guess i've got it in my fingertips.
It comes in a snap, im like hell yea i got this dont fret.

When it comes to love, oh dear..
I can help everyone else, except myself.

i came across afew notes today.
Old notes in my phone, old notes i saved in my phone.
It reminds me of how easy it is for us to forget what we were really all about,
& how we really take for granted what we have. 
Things change, people change.

Damn i hate change, i just dont say it.
Most times i just try my best to flow, i try to adapt.
i hate complaining & whining, & i dislike people who do.
I try & try.
I just dont say it.
Sometimes we just forget what we used to promise ourselves.
I always forget, but thankgod for tonight, i'm gonna resume my agenda.

 & ive been blinded by so many of these lil sweet things people seem to be doing.

wouldn't it be nice if we could all live life like this? I want a life like this, i'm working on it.

Studies first.

Since we've touched on the topic bout this, 

This note, i've been saving for afew years.

No Idea why i saved it for so long, but i just wanted to keep it in mind.
"Maybe this really is what love's like."

I've realised how much i've actually neglected myself, for the people i love.

I've been making time for people, listening to people.

i've been trying to please people.

I just want everyone i love to be happy.

 i need time to be alone, figure out what i really wanted to do.

Lately ive been lost helping others.

They say that you'll find yourself while helping others, well it aint the case for me tonight.

I'm lost.

I'll be fine tomorrow though, its just me.

I just, needed this so bad.

I havent been meditating, i havent been reading, i appreciate this moment.

I guess i'm happy like this.

The little things, i.

just hope everyone already knows how much i've been through,

& how much i care, & how gullible & forgiving i am, & i hope they will never take me for granted.

I hope my endless comfort & forgiveness will have em feel at ease.

I might not be as open anymore.

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things somehow get worst when i open up too much.

& i'm so exhausted.

Im gonna sleep & wake up just fine.

Goodnight

xx im alright.