i feel so.. broken.

Hello,
i've been blogging less lately.
Honestly, ive been blogging less because i've been
writing in my diary more.
I've had more feelings & things i didn't want anyone else to know other than myself.
It's nothing embarrasing i'd say, its just things that i don't think yall would want to know?
Its not something i'd say to people who barely know me, it's not something im comfortable with saying.
But well (-:

I used to be much happier than this.
I used to blog random nonsense, talk about funny things.
I used to be able to live & do things freely.
Talk to people, get to explore more stuff without worrying about anything else.

I miss that shit.
I love my life now, i just wished i was still as happy.
I mean i am happy, im just..
not as happy as i usually am now.
I don't feel blessed.
I don't feel appreciated,
i don't even feel loved.
But i know,

i should be happy being able to sleep & live with the people i love under a proper roof.
As long as my family is happy, i should be happy.

I need their love, i need nothing else.

no matter how much it hurts me, i cant expect anything else.
This world is cruel, so should we all learn to be cruel..
should we.