We all try to be better

Sometimes life is just.. A bitch.

& I can't handle everything by myself. 

I am blessed to have friends who can be there for me & listen to my shit.

I'm really thankful anyone at all who has faith in me. Because I know how screwed up I am. 

We're all screwed up right? At least that's what our parents tell us. 

Often, we try to let those remarks slip pass & move on & be who we are but it's pretty hard isn't it?

Because at the back of our minds we still remember how disappointed our parents are.

& we know that our parents will never be satisfied with what we're doing.

But it's okay because we do know what we do wrong, & we try to make things better.

I have been idling around the stay useless town & the do something productive town.

Obviously I'm gonna choose the better one.

& i guess we should all do that.

Considering how long we've lived & looking at how matured we should become by the time we turn 21. Every mistake becomes a violated rule that will be taken against us legally.

& that's 4 years from now.

Do we actually think we'll be ready for the world in afew years? 

Wow.

Life is mindblowing.

& now I'm in the living room reflecting on what I've been doing. & I'm a letdown.

Instead of beig with everyone else I'm here alone typing this. 

But I'll be back up right after.

(-:

My period cramps are killing me.

One of the worst and longest I've had.

Later

-a