It's right it's right it's right. I did whatever I thought was right. I was corrected & i worked through it. I was willing to work through whatever with you. It was all right. But nothing was right for you. I can't believe you said you never regretted loving me. Because I was truly there for you always, it was so right. It's still so right damn it. I hate this. But you never really get what you really want. So, it's alright. I just need time to cool off. Time to heal. A Long time to trust in this whole thing again. It's an accumulation of everything. Everyrhig the past 5 years. I had no encounters with all these until 5 years ago. They changed me, but mostly on strength. I became a stronger person. It got clearer over the past year, when I started really losing people I love. My friends I neglected, my hobbies I once committed to, & everytime I look back it's a drag. It's like a waste. It could've all gone well. But at the same time, whilst neglecting other things, I grew so much in strengthening these strengths that I have now.
I will find every single weakness I can handle, & work on them. I promise. I swear to god. I'll never want to be the same person.
I'll never want to make the same mistakes people do, onto me too.
I'll take my time. Mandy. Don't worry, take your time.
Geez I'm so sleepy.
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