Lessons of 2016// slowly

Rlly learnt now that I've been too nice & that I've been giving people a lot of authority to do whatever they want to me, & that hurts me because my heart is soft af. But most of all I know that my mind is strong, & all these circumstances made me realise a lot to be a better person EVERYDAY. & I wanna say that I'm actually proud of my courage & acceptance in learning to have figured all these out. I've realised the current people in my life who are really worth my time, & my effort. I've really given all my heart out to everyone out there, & know who to really give it to. Not everyone deserves my time & Kindness & I won't give it out. I've been growing. Life has been growing on me, & it's never always pretty but it was never bad anyway.  I'm really lucky & grateful. I won't stop. Well!! I promise. i've been strong af. & I learnt something new Everyday. I'll give myself some time to be the best I can be. Just. FOR. MYSELF. Bitch.

So for the people who have taken me for granted, & have disregarded my feelings & my thoughts regardless of kind I was to them, really. Just admit it u have no heart lmao. & im so done. Lol. But i don't hate you guys really. It's just a part of life, we'll all get a taste of what we ill-treat.Anyways,  I'll learn along the way, I'll be there still. Just won/t be the same person I was before. I've promised myself to be a bitch. Not a mean bitch, but a bitch who puts herself first. 

I'll work on it cuz I want to, & I'll be so much better. I hope people who have hurt me will learn someday too. I have no further words regarding this. Oh wells! It must be the end of this thought. Cause I'm already so tired and done with this whole drama & conspiracy. Only when you need me, only when you show me that ur worth it. I've been doing things for people because I want to, regardless of whether they were worth my time or not. But fuck this really OMG GOSH. I need to sleep. I have so much for myself. & I have many who deserves it more. Though I'm a nobody now, I'll make it someday. Y'all know me, when I want something, I'll make it work. I WON'T LET MYSELF REGRET THIS. 

It's been a great week. 2016 has been great. Thank you.