Bite your tongue, keep your eyes open.

So last night, I actually spent the night at cz's & I sure as hell typed a freaking long essay about the past few days. I have no idea how I have such high potential of falling asleep these days. I fall asleep too much, ( I mean when I'm actually tired as fak & I'm relaxing on a chair or on my bed or on the bus ).

I mean, alright let's start with the start of the week.

I've been feeling really uninspired & shirty these days. There's no other word for me to explain how I feel I guess but i'd rather leave it at shitty. I don't wanna find anymore negative feel.

I don't even know why I keep saying feels  & feel instead of feelings. It's not even a thing & I'm always just too lazy to add the ings & I always end up with bad sentence structure & it's not helping at all haha do I make sense oh wait I don't even know give me a moment.

So. As I was saying the weeks been really ... It's also pretty.. I guess tiring & I've been feeling really weak ??

I don't even feel like moving.

But I have to so.

Well.

On Monday night I woke up unfortunately fucking annoyed by all the noise I had to deal with before I was gently informed of what was happening. But I never had the chance to go back to sleep.

URGH.

But we went to Jacky's bbq & grill for lunch.

Those are really bad pictures of what I had for lunch. I forgot to take a picture of my desert which was a icecream brownie I mean what's the point y'all can prolly tell how it looks like yeap.

Threw on a pair of shorts & I left home to meet Lorenzo 

We never fail to have a good talk bro, I appreciate you so so much.

Rushing back early after dragonboat training just to catchup.

Just like the old times.

I'm proud of him & all yes, from a lazy basketball player to a really buff & Siao on dragonboater. ILL WAIT TILL NEXT YEAR BRO ILL WATCH U GROW OUT THOSE ABS 

HAHAHA. 

Went home & took a selfie with the flower that dy got me afew days ago.

I have no idea what's with me & dead flowers but it's dying & my mom threw away all my dead flowers )))': what if she throws this flower away too what should I do 

Felt worst after I took more selfies. 

I just..

Man.

I have such adorable & lovable & amazing & crazy & .. Okay I'm out of things to say. But I love you guys so so so so much.

I saw this & it was so hahahahahahahahahah

It's cute.

Yea that's the word.

& I saw this too.

sometimes I get carried away & I start to wonder what life has done to me.

I can't seem to swallow the fact that life has changed me into who I am & I also don't want to lose the bubbly & nice & naive ( as fak & I always get teased for that ) & Amanda that I used to be.

Maybe it's just me being all melodramatic now because lifes been pretty stagnant for me.

I've been trying to spice it up on my own.

But it's been..

It's been good but..

Where did all the excitement go ?