Had a great great day, & I was stuck with so much work I ended up tired & I thought of this. The other side of what I could be feeling, & I gave what I can say if I felt that way. And I am so proud of myself for doing so much better, I deserved it. & I love it.

I'm afraid of sticking close to anyone. But I will make it. I will get through this moment, & tomorrow I'll be back to 18 texts messages & happy times. I'll never let in whoever left with the keys & kept the door open. I'll change the locks. I'll finally let someone in, maybe not now. But eventually I will. & anyone who's hurt me will realize how much they've missed when they walk back seeing the height of my achievements soar into the skies. I have nothing to lose, I have lots to do. & I will do it well. 

Look within all these, think about what changes you can or are willing to make, if you can't, it's not your fault, for it is who you are, & the right people will see how beautiful they are. You'll find the answer to forgiveness & love. & nothing will be so hard to understand anymore.