random mandy at 130am

i wonder why every single time i tell my friends i think a guy is cute & they tell me that i can do better.
" he's quite attractive but he's normal lo"
" i guess i see why but, you can do better"
" Huh what do you see in him?"
firstly,
i just said that he's cute, IM NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM.
#HAKUNAYOURTATAS

Secondly,
Is it really something i have to think about?
what kind of person should i actually look out for?
don't i just feel what i feel & like what i like?
It's a little arbitrary & touchy when it comes to this.
I guess its a personal preference & there really isnt the right answer.
Maybe i just have to keep being myself, i'll definitely be fine on my own.
I'm happy staying this way & constantly having to make friends.

Well.
i just want to do well.
On my way.
JIAYOU MANDY

KEEP GOING STRONG
i hope that one day i can look back 5 years at the very least & tell myself that i do not regret a single shit i fucked up cause i have achieved most of what i've planned to on that very day, & i can be satisfied with myself 'economically' [i guess?] at the very least.

Well, today was great though. I spent the day with batman, mf no pf & satan's girl. JUST KIDDING

had fun at the samsung event, thanks candice for the jio & the badges!

Had a really satisfying lunch & dinner both at lucky plaza that leaves me guilty as i am now at 1am in the morning as i realised iive spent the past few hours on my bed doing illustrations for a client which i will never be able to burn all the fats i consumed today by today as so, i had jollibee chicken joy & beef steak, & ayam penyet for dinner. SUPER SUPER SUPER UNHEALTHY
i also forgot to bring my precious water out so i was dehydrated the whole day & as of now im gulping down more than 3 cups of water cause i miss it so much.

#watertank

as of now i would like to say that im feeling pretty safe & reckless at the same time,
I really enjoy doing whatever i've been doing the past few days.
LIKE SERIOUSLY, how is this possible?
okay maybe i'm putting myself in some mini risks, but what can i really control right.
I feel what i feel. Whatever. My priority is always still gonna be myself. Sounds selfish, i know. But i will always be the only one who can truly help myself, & also i will be the only one who's really there when i leave this place. who can i really trust if i don't trust myself. You know what i mean?
Well mandy of the future i hope im not saying things that are to ridiculous but i am trying my best & i hope by then it would be amazing to be able to read all these that i've once felt.
It might be a motivation, or maybe it could just be a sad throwback.

I can't say for sure, but well

i was expecting to take all the time in the world mourning over a sad situation i had but instead i'm doing so well, & i cant thank yall anymore for it.

I'm truly blessed for the coven.
*sparkles every fucking where with pink hearts*

I'm gonna continue doing my work with a full happy heart, i'll sleep once again with an empty mind.
Thanks y'all.