Friday, March 18, 2016

Just for Shaun Tan Zhong Jun (Pekz aegi)

Hi Shaun, i saw ur Instagram post. But I abit paisei to reply there or at all but then FK it la HAHAHA I know you didn't expect anything out of that but you know me right I just always do things like this cause it's just me. 

 Seeing your behaviour when we were smoking just now also made me feel like Maybe I should say this. Ok Lai, DA JIE LAYAN U. Shaun I Just wanted to say that I appreciated you throughout, & I know it wasn't the best but we tried our best at a certain point, & that's what really matters. You know what, I saw it(-: so. Don't worry Shaun, things are cool on my side. I'm really Glad that I met you, like really legit no lie. But as of now, all I can say it that we'll have better plans ahead. Okay geez, we can do this ok! You go live your life ok? Take your time but get over me. Whatever it is, don't suppress. I don't see our end as a competition or anything bitter at all. Cause the sweetest thing you did for me at the end was to consider my feelings with a really good closure. We are still able to communicate despite not being  able to give each other what we want & for the hurt we've caused in certain ways. I Guess for me, I'm better able to communicate with you fully as a person because we don't have that commitment & that expectation of act anymore. Also, the time and effort I put in to understand you paid off. Like, I know that it's over, so all the struggles we had as a couple are broken down, & it's left to being chill bout anything. But it's also really mostly thanks to you too, so don't keep harping on how you weren't the best Boyfriend or anything ok. Even I'm over that part of us. I don't blame you Nor do I hate you. Nor do I want anything bad to happen to you. Not because I have feelings for you still la ugh but it's just the right thing to hope for. For me, i just feel like you deserve it basically. You'll feel like being one when you can. That means a lot to me. & remember that I'll always be Glad to see you happier. You're really a nice person Shaun. You're human, deserve to be happy. Go & live a good life. Go crazy at siamdius, keep focusing in school(build up on your portfolio so ur gpa doesn't matter anymore), have fun with all your friends, keep being a better version of yourself. Like I said I want to see you doing well in the future ah! We both know this will take time, & for myself too. (Don't think my feelings will fade off that quick. But I won't hide it, neither should u ok! Remember, if anything, don't suppress. & If u meet someone, pls show her off ok ill be happy for you. But as of now>>>>> Take your time.) 

AND!! Don't be so awkward when you see me ok, I hope we won't be strangers. I'll really give us time alone now. Time to get over us. (But if I really cannot tahan not talking I'll text you. I'm sorry hahaahahhaha) It was a good ride, I learnt a lot. Either way, I'm still here as a Friend. Okay okay geez Amanda stop being SO LENGTHY GOD SHAUN sorry I NEED TO LEARN HOW TO BE MORE STRAIGHTFORWARD WHEN I WRITE. Hahaha, alright. Actually Sheryl told me to send you a letter before our break ended, but I Guess that couldn't work out, so here's what is right. This is not even a goodbye letter of some sort. I Guess it's motivation I hope I did it right. Save it somewhere if it helps. This is just my advice & my final proper letter to you as a Friend. You don't have to reply ok!! But if I said anything wrong just sound me la ok HAHAA 

ALRIGHT SHAUN, 
Prolly seeing u again but not so soon. Take care ok better not fuck up ur immune system. NOT SAYING THIS OK FOR URSELF U KNOW IT. 

Okay I see it now I'm ur other Mom. Ok I'll be more carefree, less logical all the damn time. (-: thanks Shaun. Remember to np handshake me next time ok thx 


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